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In the darkness of life that we find treasure

Feel and trust your senses 💎✨ that’s all there is to it.

Have you ever hit rock bottom in life and had a hard time, and in your haste to get out of the situation as quickly as possible, you took some action that made things even more confusing or made the situation worse?

I had so much of it, and sometimes the reason why is because I was at the mercy of the problem at hand 😳✨

For example, when I hit rock bottom after breaking up with a boyfriend, I would try to get another boyfriend right away, and sometimes I’d fall for a strange guy.

Broke up with my boyfriend (the problem at hand), and then I tried to get a boyfriend to solve this problem.

I spent all my energy on making a boyfriend to solve this problem.

But by getting stuck with a weird guy, I realize that having a boyfriend doesn’t mean I’m happy 😳✨

Up until now, I had been trying hard to get a boyfriend because the scheme was “having a boyfriend = happiness,” but what is true happiness and hope for me?

Why do I want a boyfriend in the first place?

Is it because I’m lonely?

Why am I lonely?

Alone = lonely?

Is that true?

Wouldn’t it be better if I was happy regardless if I had a boyfriend or not?

Many of us are afraid to look at our darkness, don’t want to do it, don’t want to touch it 😉

I understand how it feels to be told to look at the darkness head-on when you’re in pain and suffering, but it’s too painful to look at it.

But actually, there are many treasures in that darkness 💖

In my case, it started with the question, “Why am I thinking like this?” and then I started digging into it as described above.

I realized that I was trying to protect myself from “stereotypes” and “painful memories from the past” ❤️

That’s a lot of love for myself 😍💖

I had already given up on this life, but when I found this treasure,

I realized that I’m not just giving up, I’m working really hard, and my self-love is amazing!

The darkness became my hope✨

From there, I have been digging in various places, searching for the treasure 💖

Darkness can be darkness because there is hope✨